Dear Lord...

Dear Lord,

What is happening to me? I need clarity. I’m not just PMSing…I know it. This feeling I can’t shake it. Lately, I have been feeling my seasons shift. And not only that, I feel like what you have for me to do is even more than what I thought…

Lord, why is it that I cry just because I want people to know you? I want them to experience your love as I have. You have brought me out of the depths of hell…I am transparent but no one but you knows everything. I have watched you protect me, and have experienced your healing power. Nights when my phone didn’t ring, and loneliness tried to rear its ugly head; your spirit comforted me and held me. I have gotten to know you and there is still so much I don’t know. I’m excited about my relationship with you. How can people EVER say they are lonely if you are there? You are just waiting for them to abandon all idols of television, radio, and sometimes even fellowship just to be with you. In YOU there’s Joy, in YOU there’s peace. You died so we could have it…And it hurts me that so many people don’t see that, or refuse to receive it. I mean YOU died so our lives could be abundant. You want us to prosper even as our soul prospers.

Everyday, I see people unhappy. I see people settling. I see people worried about the economy. CHRISTIANS. I don’t get it. You supply our needs, we are ambassadors for you. But they can only realize that by spending that intimate quality time with you…That’s how they will receive joy unspeakable.

I find myself Lord praying for people a lot more. So many people are hurting, bitter, and some lying to themselves. There are people who have not released the molestations and rapes to you. There are people who have not released the abandonment to you. Lord use me to show your love to them! Use me for your glory! I receive your wisdom and insight in order to be your spokesperson in the earth realm of your everlasting love. I want to continue to decrease, so you can increase in me…

Whatever, this new level is Lord I’m ready if you say I am and I willingly receive all that comes with it….

In YOUR Service,

Jennifer